And Bella said ( I'm saying):

...Alice, you've disappeared, like everything else. Who else can I talk to? I'm lost. When you left...and he left...you took everything with you. But the absence of him is everywhere I look. It's like a huge hole has been punched through my chest. But in a way I'm glad...the pain is my only reminder that he was real...that you all were...

...Alice, I saw him. Maybe I'm crazy now, I guess that's okay. If a rush of danger is what it take to see him, then that's what I'll find...

...Alice. I wish I had your real address. I wish I could tell you about Jake. He makes me feel better. I mean...he makes me feel alive. The hole in my chest...well, when I'm with Jake it's like it's almost healed...for a while. But even Jake can't keep the dreams away...

...Alice, things are...things are bad again. Without Jake, I, I can't stand it. I don't see Edward anymore...will it really feel like he never existed? I will find a place where I can see him again...

...Alice, is it possible that everything is true? Fairy tales and horror stories? Is it possible that there isn't anything sane or normal at all?...

...Alice, I'm alright, until I'm alone. And lately that's all the time. Jacob's gone. He's hunting Victoria. And Charlie's hunting Jacob. And you're gone and so is Edward. And there's just nothing now. But I realize where I have to go, what I have to do to see him again.

in my heart..